The toll of the troll in my street

It takes it's toll to be purely whole
in the deepest depths of ones sole.
To keep the heart and mind carefully entwined,
making ways for the rays of light
sprung from beyond the origins of life. 

The light, the sound, bound in matter.
Matter controlled by time and vice versa.
It takes the hardest toll to long for the day,
today or any other day - it's all the same.

I see reflections scattered on the water 
and try to catch them, the pieces, 
as they float away and sink to the bottom 
of this lake of memories. I fail my mission. 
Every bit fades away as each piece goes its own way.

Deep in a valley of mourn
I was born as the son of Lady Sin. 
Fathered by The Holy Spirit. 

Only taking, I don't know what giving means.
Making my own rules of attraction. 
Full of affection for the whole, 
I choose to go my way alone. 
With my head out of the ground, 
I walk on the sunny side of life -
stuck in the clouds, 
holding on to the doubt 
of given righteousness and its glory.

Enough!

Wonderful are the many 

different ways of man.

Wonderful is the great circle 

of evolution and destruction.

The wall which separates all 
was built by the human state of mind 
with tools of pure foolishness. 
I am one of many and there are many more 
who hold the gift of sense for behaviour of truth.

Now I can't see the line which
used to be between fiction and reality 
- I am blind. 
I still feel, 
have sense of smell and touch. 
I also hear. 
I keep growing my senses 
each of their own 
to recognize the shit
given to me as gold. 
I can feel the wet and cold surrounding
presence of loneliness, 
as I listen to the roaring silence 
brake the laws of science.

It truly takes its toll. 

It's a burden, hard one,
and I don't like it. 
I despite it. 

Truly hate it with all my might.

A decision I take to finally close the flow and let go.
My eyes open up and everything changes.
Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes to the better. 
If better could be better it would be the best; best of the best. 
That's a fact.

But it isn't. 

And that takes its toll...

It feels like a trolls toll
this concrete wall 
I created for my comfort.
Now everything is of different sort.

The toll of the troll in my street.

When I finally am free
from its burden,
I'll write poetry of love,
laughter and easy living.

Until then I write about what I feel,
what I hear, what I see... 

The gigantic troll in my street.